Today is valentines day. Guess who doesn’t have one. Meee!! Ima be thinking about you all night though. Seriously can’t wait till Thursday. And I absolutely can’t wait till we “hang”
I have been in the best moods these past few days especially today. Damnit i love you so fucking much!!!!!!!! FUCK
you have always been secretly in love with ryan and youve liked him more and more each day since the summer you dated and youve always wanted him and you hope one day itll all work out an dhell see your the girl for him. your waiting for him just like i waited for mark cuz ryan is your mark. and youve tried to get over him but you cant cuz hes ryaaann and everytime you see him you fall for him even more and you love him so much it hurts you might not want him now but you want him evantually you want another chance with him but not right now when everything is so confusing and drama and all with bridget right now you only want whats best for him and oyu just want him to be happy and youll keep being there for him no atter who he dates and you hope to one day that he realizes your the one thats always been there but for now your gonna be what he needs. a friend.
i dont know what it is but i reallly wanna get high. not just that but i wanna get high with ryan. fuck all this bull shit i just want it to be me and him, my first time, and i wanna soar to another planet. the reanon i wanna do it with him is because he always telles me that he will get the best stuff and that he will take good care of me. i trust him too. he is probably the only person i trust with my life. he is my best friend. i couldnt ask for anything more. (i mean i could but it wont happen and things are so good right now i dont wanna fuck that up)

